So, Chanel just said she is cancelling her house party for her birthday. She said she doesn't feel like doing anything anymore. URGGH I was REALLY looking forward to that party ahhh idk what im going to do with myself anymore. I think I'm honestly just going to get myself a hotel room or a night with my check and get me some booze and party myself because no one will do it with me!! errr And, i have to tell Rich tomorrow he is off the hook with the party.... he prollywasn't gonna go anyways. He'll be happy he's off the hook it means he gets a break from me he won't have to see me for an entire weekend. yay him.
Rich asked me tonight if his "pp went inside my pp"..... I was really tempted to just say no because I didn't want him to get upset. But, I couldn't bring myself to lie about it and because i was so troubled about what to say I didn't reply fast enough so he just assumed they it did. Now he won't do it again. I told him he never had to touch me again
I remember 99% of last night. I'm actually proud of myself for that. I mean, somethings are fuzzy and alot of it seems like somone kept hitting a stop and play button, if that makes sense. I remember fighting Rich on the couch because he wanted to hold me but, i was mad at him so, i didn't want him to and he hurt me. :'( Rich hurt me. Yup I remember everything. i remember both times when we were in the bathroom and yeah. Rich came twice, I didn't have an orgasm. I got close but, I didn't have one. I don't think Rich cares if I orgasm or not... I am still very mad no... no im LIVID with Rich and Hurt by him and how he talked behind my back and shit. I'm done. I'm just going to act happy 100% of the time and when im not happy im not going to tell him why. And i dont give a shit if he doesn't like it when I said I dont want to talk about something. He's gonna have to deal. Asshole.
